This Can't Be Happening

by Anna Rodenberg
(Garnavillo, IA United States)

My name is Anna Rodenberg I lost my only two Children Olivia 4, and Max 11 Months. It was March 27th 2011 when The Truck my husband and children were in burst into flames and ended up in a field. I went to work a block from our home at 3pm on Sunday. I went to leave that day I told Olivia I would be home at 9 o'clock, and I told her I loved her. Max was crying because I was leaving, and I had to run out quick or I was going to be late. I was at work for about an hour when I heard the sirens in town go off. Everytime the sirens in town went off other than 12pm or 6pm I would call my husband to make everything was ok. I heard the sirens go off and instantly had this rush of coolness flowing through my body, this very uneasy feeling. I called my husband and this young girl answered and said that there was an accident, and a fire. I heard my husband say tell her to head south out of town. When I heard his voice I had felt a sigh of relief, I knew if he was ok the kids would be too. I drove out of town as fast as I could. Once I got on the highway I saw this big line of black smoke that what looked like went up to the sky. I drove even faster. I got there and saw my husband laying in a ditch surrounded by EMS. I saw him and the neighbor that was riding with him. I kept telling myself that he had taken the kids to his grandparents , or had the neighbor girl watch them. I tore out of the vehicle and ran down into the ditch and the police stopped me. I said I wanted to see my husband he was close enough to hear me. i got a little closer to him and he could barely talk but the only thing he said before they took him away was, "I'm Sorry Anna" The next thing I remember is getting up from the ground and Yelling and Screaming questions I had already knew the answer to, then someone taking me to set down in the ditch and staring at what was left of the accident. I went to the hospital in the next town in a cop car. I called my Mom and told her to come to the hospital right away. I sat there by myself for a few minutes. I felt so empty and alone. It's was almost like this strange outer body experience. It was like that day I died right along with them.

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May 10, 2013
by: Anonymous

The pain is unbearable at times, to lose a loved one and especially a child. I will pray for you your husband and for your little ones. They will always be close to your heart. It may be difficult to let people in but if you surround yourself with your family and friends you will see all the love that they have to offer to you and your children. This process is never ending and it is going to take strength to make it through, use all the support you can! Your family and friends will always be there for you! There is so much love for you and Ryan!

Feb 20, 2012
Thank You
by: Anna Rodenberg

Thank You for all of your kind words.

Feb 15, 2012
So devastating
by: Jen

Anna I am so sorry....I can't even imagine how to go on after that - My oldest son Brandon age 23yrs died Oct. 25, 2011 and on that fated day I died with him. My life has been so difficult to live. I will pray for you - you are a strong woman I pray you find your purpose for living this life here on earth without your two little ones who are now safely in the hands of God. My heart aches just thinking about your loss - I know the biggest challenge for me is to figure out how to live my life without my son.
God Bless you and may His angels always be with you!

Feb 15, 2012
I have no words to comfort you
by: Anonymous

Anna i just cannot imagine what you must have gone through. It is really awful, losing both your children at a time, i lost my son 21years in October 2011 and it was terrible i just cannot imagine your pain, i will pray for you, praying for each other thats the only thing we can do. Nothing and no one can bring them back, we can only pray for our angels in heaven. God bless u and may he heal you.

Feb 14, 2012
How cruel
by: Cindy

My dear Anna, March has been cruel to us. I lost my precious son on the 21st of March, 2011. He was my only child and I have felt that there can be nothing harder than losing the only one I had, but Oh! I am so sad for you; both your babies!? It is hard to find words and I want so desperately to comfort you. I pray that God keeps you in the palm of His hand. Please stay strong and remember this ... life is still so very precious.

Feb 14, 2012
so sorry
by: Anonymous

I can't even begin to imagine the pain and suffering you are going through to lose two children must be awful. I lost my 3 year old grandson a month ago and just being a grandma I feel like I'm in hell on earth, I see the faces of my son and grandsons mommy and feel their pain. Have you had counseling or do you have anyone to talk too? I'm crying just thinking about what you are going through the mental anguish... please write more and tell me what they were like, what their favorite toy was, what they looked like, etc... keep their memory alive. I'm going to keep you in my prayers

Feb 14, 2012
Anna - God be with you...
by: Virginia (Mobile, AL - USA)

God bless and keep you very near to Him. May His Angels stay close to you for comfort.

Feb 13, 2012
Anna I am sorry for your loss
by: Anonymous

Please write here, keep telling your story. Talk about your little ones. Share with us what they were like. Talk until you feel like you do not need to talk anymore. Loss like that is so unimaginable. I just cannot even pretend to understand. All I can truly say is I am sorry.

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