Till Death Do Us Part

by M Mack
(Chicago)

Death has certainly done its job here in "doing us part.". We were soulmates, one of a kind people who loved one another no matter what. We shared the same sentiments, were good to others and appreciated what we had. We didn't need much. Our dreams kept us alive and hopeful. Even I am amazed we were truly in love for so long. It just kept growing over the years with respect and consideration for each other. Not many were as fortunate to have what we did. That kind of love is special and we had what most never will.

The question of joining my love in eternity is always there. Will he wait for me? Will he decide to reincarnate? If so does that mean we will never be together in eternity as planned? I can't stand the thought of us never being together and thinking that our last kiss was final.

It's now 14 months since he passed and I know I have many stages of this grief to complete before my memories are smiles with a sigh. I miss his laugh and heart and everything about him. It doesn't get easier, and I am sliding back slowly ever day. I'm sad and nothing can fill my heart like he did.

This struggle we are all going through can be unbearable. I know it has many ups and downs but the down part seems to be more often lately. As I read all of your messages, I realize that we can relate to loosing and hopelessness as many on this site experience everyday. All I can do is wait and see. I know Raymond will wait patiently until I am called home and we can be together in eternity. I just pray eternity is for real for all of us and our loves will be waiting with open arms.