I've been so tired of crying the second I open my eyes. Everything I do reminds me of the past. My daughter passed away 11 years ago. I lost my first love, two of my greatest friends, my soulmate... They are all in heaven surrounding me every day. I feel like there are more people i love that are dead than those living. It makes me look forward to the day I die. Its sounds crazy but it is true. How do I put the past behind me?