To grandma (mama)
My grandmother was a sweet old lady who never forgot chinese new year. It has been 3-4 years of her passing but I am still going on strong. I have her in my dreams, I think of her every time I see something is red. I think of her. I never cried at her funeral service. My other cousins did. I don't know how to publicly express grief because it was always discouraged in my family. It was considered shameful to cry in public. I don't know if it makes me a bad person for not crying at her funeral service but focusing on the good memories has kept me going. I haven't visited her grave site in 2 years since her passing because I am so busy with college. She never got to see me go to college. I wished she did. I love you, mama. I still think of you and your checked scarf and your purple one too.