To My Best Friend and Soul Mate Willie

by Julie
(Dublin, Ireland )

I lost my little Westie who was 12 1/2 years old on the 6th of March 2014. From that day to this, I have been lost and miserable without him.
The overwhelming feeling of complete and utter loss from the minute I open my eyes until I close them is unbearable and its a pain that I have never experienced in all my life.

Whilst I know in my heart he was getting old, I never thought I'd loose him as quickly as I did. He went downhill with his breathing over the space of a few days and it got to the point that I knew he could take no more.

I never thought I could make such a decision but when I look back, I really think he gave me the strenght to make the call. I even stayed with him right until the end when he died in my arms.

The love we had/have is unmeasurable and I will miss him and adore him for the rest of my life.

Sometimes I dont want to live this life.

Julieanne from Dublin, Ireland.

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Dec 06, 2014
sending sympathy and understanding
by: sue

Julie, I've just your story about losing your beloved boy Willie and I wanted to tell you how sorry I am. I totally understand your pain.

In the last 5 months I have lost 2 precious cats from cancer. We were together for 12 years, the bond was extremely close I am devastated. I've lost my furry family as live alone and have no children.

33 days ago I had to euthenize my gorgeous ginger tom who had a cancerous lump in his throat. The pain and sadness are unbearable and I don't know how to carry on without him.

I'm hoping that eventually time will heal but right now that seems impossible.

Speaking to a pet bereavement counselor helped a little but nothing takes away the loneliness of our lives without our four legged friends.

Sending you hugs and sympathy.

May 26, 2014
Thank you
by: Julie

Hi Lisa,

I am very sorry for your loss...I know the pain is unbearable. It will be 3 months since I lost my baby this coming thursday and I still feel as sad now as I did on the day we lost him.

Its terrible having to make the call to send them to heaven and the guilt I felt/feel is awful. With the passage of time I began to forget how unwell he was and so I keep blaming myself that maybe I was too hasty and could have done more.

However I know in my heart how much I loved and do anything for him and know that the awful desision I was pressed to make at the time must have been the right one - however I have never lost anyone close so to me and because it all seemed to happed so fast, I now know the meaning of 'forever' and the thought of not seeing my best friend again is the part that I am now really struggling with.

So much so that as crazy as this might seem, there are times I just want to take him out of his grave and rush back to the vet and tell him that I have changed my mind...

I'm sorry about this but I am really struggling with loosing him that sometimes I feel like I am going crazy. Sometimes I cant breath the grief is so overwhelming.

Again I am so sorry for all your loss - i know its a pain that literally takes your breath away.
I've even prayed and begged God to give him back to me but I know that cant be.

Willie was so beautiful in every single way and his zest for life and love was so amazing that a part of him is so angry with God for allowing this to him to him.

I'm sorry for all this as I know my misery is not going to help others who are going through the same thing but I am just devastated and the passage of time is not helping like I was told it would.

My thoughts and prayers to you all at this hardest of times in your live's xxx

Love Julie

May 23, 2014
I so understand
by: Lisa

Oh, Julianne...I so understand how you feel. I just had to have my little Maltese put down 2 days ago. I'm beyond heartbroken. I'm lost and empty and just want to crawl in a hole. I hope you can find some comfort in knowing there are so many of us out there who so understand and feel your pain.
Hugs to you!
Lisa from California

May 23, 2014
I share your feelings
by: Lisa

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your story sounds identical to mine...I lost my little Maltese Buddy 2 days ago and I'm so very lost and empty. Just know there is someone else who shares your heartache.

May 17, 2014
by: Anonymous

I'm sorry for your loss I can't say I know how you feel because everybody is different I lost my pet last Nov and my eyes still water when I think of him

till you meet Willie again at the rainbow bridge

May 14, 2014
To My Best Friend and Soul Mate Wille
by: Doreen UK

Julianne I am so sorry for your loss of your Westie. It doesn't matter how old they are and knowing they will pass away does not lessen the pain of loss.
I have had pets and lost them and the pain is so unbearable. My sister has a Westie who has cancer and is dying and I adore him. Westie's are such darling pets. They are my favourite dog. They have such cute loveable faces which you can always fall in love with. My heart breaks for your loss and ours when Dixie dies. I can't bear this moment.
May God come close to you/us and give us His Peace and comfort in our loss.

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