To The World's Best Mother

by Sob

I lost my mother to cancer on 11th of July 2012. I shall never forget that day. It's been more than two months now and I still find it difficult to accept that my mum will never be there with me for the rest of my life.

We were as close as any mother and daughter could be. I was her sole caregiver since September 2009, when she was diagnosed with cancer, till the end. I turned 24 on 4th of July 2012, just a few days before her death. It was my last birthday with her. I spent the whole day in the hospital. I couldn't bear to part with her. Tears don't stop when I think of those last days. My mother was in a lot of pain. Even thinking about her pain makes me burst into hysterical fits of sobs. I can't even imagine what she must be feeling then.

She was the most woman innocent woman I have ever known. She had a heart of gold. A very generous being. She believed in forgiving and forgetting. She was kind to even those who mistreated her. She just knew how to love people. She didn't deserve anything that happened to her.

I can't imagine my life with out her. She was with me all the time. Dinners, movies, shopping and everything. I miss her more with each passing day. Time does not heal anything. The pain of losing her is so great that even words fail me when I start describing it. Why did it have to happen to me? I will never know. I lost that one person who meant the world to me. My whole world is gone now. I am left behind empty handed with nothing but her memories and belongings. Even crying doesn't help anymore. I just wish I could join her soon. I can't wait for that day. I am already dead inside. I am just waiting for the last breath to come.

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Sep 24, 2012
Im so sorry for your loss
by: Victor Gill

My mother died July 20th 2012. After posting about my mothers death on this website. I read your post and noticed we had very similar conclusions. I feel your pain.. Im so sorry. Please try to stay strong and pursue your goals and ambitions as if she were still here so if you do meet again youll have plenty to talk about and she wont be disappointed that you were living miserably and lifeless. I know its so hard and will never be the same but YOU HAVE LIFE make something amazing happen please.

With love and remorse

Victor Gill

Sep 17, 2012
My Best Friend My Mum
by: Diane

I am 47 yrs old my Mum passed on the 09/09/2012 aged 88yrs at the nursing home she was battling dementia and emphysema for the last 2.5 yrs. My Dad passed in December 1999 and it was me and Mum Iam an only child and I know the pain I want to be with here also. Im sorry as this has just happened to me so it's very raw.

Sep 16, 2012
Me too
by: Lost

What can I say reading these posts is like reading about myself. My mother my best friend gone for 15 months. The pain guilt anguish and desperation of her loss is becoming more than I can take. Her I am almost 47 years old in married only child. My father also gone for ten years of cancer. My mother my life died 13 days after being diagnosed with ovarian cancer. For five months seeing this vibrant energetic woman not even be able to stand for more than a few minutes and being told it was the flue her sciatic nerve .... My mother lived with me since my fathers death. She lived for me. My fan club is gone. I come home to an empty house. When I arrived home when she was alive the smile on her face when I arrived home each day I just can't deal with her being gone . She was a kind gentle caring human being who never harmed a soul. Watching her die A horrible painful death has been life shattering. I exist this is not living.oeople ask me how I am and I say fine I don't want to hear u need to move on get over it...., I am now under medical care for severe depression and anxiety. Me who never took anything stronger than Tylenol. Time is not helping I feel that I am half fdead. I visit the cemetery daily and it helps a bit have a wonderful extended fdmily but I prefer to be left alone becuz they want the old me back. That person is dead and buried. I never imagined such pain. Such a beautiful loving woman gone why what did I ever do maybe if I had prayed more I don't know. I don't pray don't more because I am prayed out I begged god to save her. No good byes no last words just a horrible painful death images etched in my brain. I stayed with her 24/7 the last 13 days of her life that she spent in the hospital I held her hand. I literally never left her room fearing she would die without me or that she may get scared if I was not there. I have no strength left to battle tears some days stream down my face. U barely make it through my work day I get in my car and the water works begin. I am sorry for rambling on

Sep 15, 2012
by: D.

Nothing can prepare you for the loss of a mother. It is excruciatingly painful. I am so grateful to you for having the courage to write this letter -- a way to let others know your mother through you-- an inspiration to others in the way she lived. What a blessing for your mother to have you with her in her time of need. You have expressed your grief so honestly that I related to everything you said.
You must have a lot of inner strength, determination and patience to have been such a support to your mother as you both fought this disease.
Your life is turned upside down.You are experiencing the magnitude of your loss but also the magnitude of your love.
One hour at a time. Find caring support.
Just like this letter, explore small ways to bring you peace and comfort even for a few moments throughout your day. God Bless.

Sep 14, 2012
missing my mum just like you
by: sharon

istopped at your posting as i too lost my brave beloved mother also on the 11th july 2012. she also had cancer and i like you was with her at the hospital until she passed away and i cannot stop seeing her face in my head as she was in so much pain and every day it hurts me so much that i couldnt take her pain away. I get told it gets easier as time goes by, but i feel its just not true as every day goes by i am crying more and more as i cant believe its been 9 weeks that i havent seen her or spoken to her. I have memories and i have her belongings but i just want her back. she wasnt just my mum, she was my best friend and we spent so much time together. I feel like i have no strength left. I wish i could say something to help you but we just have to take each dayat a time and i know its not going to be easy.Please take care and my heart goes out to you

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