To The World's Best Mother
I lost my mother to cancer on 11th of July 2012. I shall never forget that day. It's been more than two months now and I still find it difficult to accept that my mum will never be there with me for the rest of my life.
We were as close as any mother and daughter could be. I was her sole caregiver since September 2009, when she was diagnosed with cancer, till the end. I turned 24 on 4th of July 2012, just a few days before her death. It was my last birthday with her. I spent the whole day in the hospital. I couldn't bear to part with her. Tears don't stop when I think of those last days. My mother was in a lot of pain. Even thinking about her pain makes me burst into hysterical fits of sobs. I can't even imagine what she must be feeling then.
She was the most woman innocent woman I have ever known. She had a heart of gold. A very generous being. She believed in forgiving and forgetting. She was kind to even those who mistreated her. She just knew how to love people. She didn't deserve anything that happened to her.
I can't imagine my life with out her. She was with me all the time. Dinners, movies, shopping and everything. I miss her more with each passing day. Time does not heal anything. The pain of losing her is so great that even words fail me when I start describing it. Why did it have to happen to me? I will never know. I lost that one person who meant the world to me. My whole world is gone now. I am left behind empty handed with nothing but her memories and belongings. Even crying doesn't help anymore. I just wish I could join her soon. I can't wait for that day. I am already dead inside. I am just waiting for the last breath to come.