To those I love and those who love me
I was trying to go through some of the papers that have piled up in our room since Bryan got sick and I came across the obituary that they gave to all of the people that came to his viewing. I had forgotten that it has a poem in it:
To those I love and those who love me.
When I am gone, Release me. Let me go. I have so many things to see and do. You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears. Be happy that we had so many years. I gave you my love. You can only guess how much you gave to me in happiness. I thank you for the love you each have shown. But now it's time I traveled on alone. So grieve a while for me if grieve you must. Then let your grief be comforted by trust. It's only for a while that we must part. So bless the memories within your heart. I won't be far away for life goes on. So if you need me, call and I will come. Though you can't see or touch me I'll be near-and if you listen with your heart, you'll hear all of my love around you soft and clear. And then, when you must come this way alone, I'll greet you with a smile and "Welcome Home".
When I picked out the package at the funeral home I didn't even know that the poem was inside, all I saw was the color and design on the front. It's almost like Bryan is talking to me, but I don't know how to release him. I do believe that when it is my turn to go to heaven that Bryan will be standing by God to welcome me home. Oh how I look forward to that day. My girls get upset when they hear me say that, I assured them that I won't do anything stupid, but I can't wait to be with their dad. Maybe I shouldn't say that but that is how I feel. I love and miss him so much. I know they miss him too, but I keep trying to tell them that it's not the same. Yes, he was their daddy, but he was my husband, lover, best friend, my soulmate. We were only truly happy when we were together. I miss you baby, and I can't wait to be with you again, this time for eternity.