by Stacey Vermaak
(Cape Town)

I just lost my dad this morning and I don’t know what to do. “ I don’t know what I’m supposed to do”, keeps popping into my head, every 15 minutes or so (at least I think its 15 minutes) . It was my first reaction, together with the other question. Then I cried, but from shock I think, and now every 15 min or so it’s either “I don’t know what to do” or “What does it mean?”.
What are you supposed to do?
And what does it mean- for him? Where is he? GONE WHERE? And how can you even think of throwing his body into a hole in the ground if you’re not sure where he’s gone. Why has no one ever said that burying someone in the ground- someone you know and love, well that’s a really stupid way of doing things?
When I went to see him last week I believed that he was going somewhere, I mean there is something about being with someone near the end where it feels like they’re half with you, half somewhere else. And it makes you believe in something. I just wish I knew what.
My dad died a Christian, the way he raised me. I hope that was enough, or the right answer. I mean it’s pretty important that it’s the right answer, or maybe I just want so badly for him to have more that I saw what I wanted to see.
I hope I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing.

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Feb 19, 2013
by: Doreen U.K.

Stacey I am so very sorry for your loss of your Dad this morning. You are facing the very worst time of your life now. The initial days of loss are confusing, and hurt us so very much we just want that pain to end. Find someone to talk to about your feelings to get them out of your system and help your grief. It may be a relative you can talk to or a friend or a counsellor who is trained to support someone who has lost a loved one. None of us knows how to cope with grief till it happens.
It is a horrid feeling to see the one you have loved lying in a coffin with no life in them and then you have to bury them in the ground. I think this is very CRUEL. But this is how the Bible describes DEATH. God says Death is but a SLEEP. WE go back into the ground and turn to dust as in the way God created us. God created man from the dust of the earth and says that man returns to the ground. But he only stay there till Jesus comes back to earth for us as He promised in the Bible. Jesus will then come with a Shout and the Dead in Christ shall rise first and then we who remain on the earth will be caught up to meet our Lord in the air and we shall live and reign with God for 1000years. This is called the Millenium. After this 1000years God will come back to judge the lost and God will create a new heaven and a new earth wherein will dwell righteousness. If your father was a Christian He will live with this Blessed Hope. This is written in the Bible. This is where our HOPE come from and will help us through our Grief. Hold onto this Hope.

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