Tony half gone

Any who've spent time here truly knows a special kind of pain, the loss of a soul mate. There's nothing like it in this life, nothing. Everyone on here should tell their whole family to 'prepare' now, for this meteor to hit you or your soul mate eventually. Give her or him that kiss that gift. Do that thing so helpful. Tell her or him how much you love them and hug them often every day! Dont waste another minute.
It's so evident that the big C is the main, serial slayer of those we wrap our souls up with for life. I've been told it's random, not personal and can strike any of us. What I can't stand hearing is that it's "God's plan" or part of it. I believe that to be either horrible misinformation or a vicious lie.
It's been almost 3 weeks since I lost Joan to glioblastoma (Ted Kennedy's disease). I have to strive to discipline myself to eat, keep busy, see others, even family. I would just as soon die. Her passing was painless but she was visibly grieved at the ambush and that particularly stabbed me and twisted the dagger.
Most importantly I'd like to say to the rest of the 'lost souls' of their mates, to get professional help. Get meds. Do something. Don't just wait this thing out alone. If you think seeing a 'shaman' would work, then I think you should try it.