Too Much Regret
by Liz Bucciero
(Bay Shore NY, USA)
Mom and Billy
I lost my Mom on March 18th 2010, I was not ready nor expected this to happen. She went into the hospital for something minor and never came back home. I never got to say goodbye or tell her I loved her. I know she saw me by her bedside holding her hand, letting her know I was there and telling her "Mom I love you, why is this happening?"
I am 33 yrs old and can't grasp hold of this. I am not supposed to be the "grown up" and have to bury my Mom. I am one of 8 siblings. We all had a very different relationship with my Mom. I could tell her anything, she would call me to say "I just wanted to make you laugh". I have no one to call me and say that anymore. What about giving me advice with my own kids? Everyone says it gets easier, when does this happen? I also lost my Mother in Law 5 months before my Mom passed. I feel very alone, very angry and torn up inside. Please any advice or support would help.