Too much to bear

by Kathie Grace
(Baltimore MD)

I'm 58 yrs old, My father who I wasn't really close to died at 69 from aorta. Six weeks later my 46 year old sister died from blood disease thrombocytopenia. Three years later my oldest brother 46 found dead in abandoned building by drug overdose. Nine days later 23 year old daughter left house, on veterans day never came home, murder by serial killer Joseph Metheny in Baltimore Md. One and a half year later husband died second day into trial with heart. Four years later lost youngest brother 47 to cirrhosis of the liver. Two years later lost mom at 78 yrs of age. One year later to the day mom died lost stepfather. I cope pretty well most of time. I'm bipolar and I work and have strong faith, but it's the holidays and having very rough time right now. Someone told me that my family wouldn't want me to be grieving right now, nor my family that is still alive, which consists of 3 other children, grand children and great grand children. That advice didn't seem to help much.

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Jun 12, 2011
Will it ever stop
by: Anonymous

I wrote before, about the multiple deaths including murdered 23 year old daughter and husband during murder trial dying and all three sibling dying two of them 46 and on 47 and mother and then stepfather one yr later to the date of my mother's date. Well I recently was forced to retire because I missed a lot of time at the time, i was trying to get off of the anxiety medicine that I have taken all these years to try and numb the pain. Well when I did that I crashed all the deaths hit me at once and I went into a frenzy of anxiety and depression, I thought I was going to have to be hospitalized, and now I have no job ,Have plenty of time to think and things remind me of the deaths. will it ever stop, or will I suffer the rest of my days, I will be 59 in September.

Dec 04, 2010
by: Anonymous

I know from experience, that there is no good day
of the year to face a death. But the holidays are so much more painful. Holidays represent family and closeness, and safe, warm times. When
loss is in the mix, things change. This will
be my first Holiday season without my parents and
brothers. But, we are all here to help each
other. And I pray for you, for comfort, and peace
May God meet your needs in a generous and loving
way. I am so sorry.

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