Too much to bear

by Karen
(Stuart, FL)

Myself and Greg

Myself and Greg

Myself and Greg
Myself and my love Troy
myself and Daddy during better times

I don't know where to start. Within the last 18 months I have lost my best friend Greg who was 36 to unknown reasons, my best friend, my love and my soul mate Troy who was 49 to pneumonia(he died the same day I took him to the hospital) and finally I lost my buddy, my Daddy on 3/14 after caring for him for 4 1/2 years. In the cases of Troy and Daddy I didn't have the luxury of going through their belonging when I was ready. I immediately had to donate or sell virtually everything because I had to move both times and couldn't afford much storage. I've spent months crying uncontrollably, wasting my days in a haze on the couch, but I always had to hold it together because I had Daddy to care for. Now what? I did meet a wonderful kind and gentle man named John whom I married in January. But it doesn't matter, all of that hurt and all of those memories are still there and I don't seem to be getting any better. I feel so guilty that I am frozen in a state of grief and can't give him the attention that he deserves. I see a grief counselor every so often and am going to see a new psychiatrist on Monday. The last one has hurt more than he has helped. How long will I feel like this? I feel uncomfortable in my own skin. There is nothing I want to do. Nothing is enjoyable or brings me any happiness.I am paralyzed sitting here unable to make any moves to get through this or start the new life that is staring me in the face. What do I do? How do I go about doing it? The love and pain for the three most important men in my life runs through my blood. They would tell me that I am strong enough to do anything I put my mind to. I only wish that I believed it myself.

Comments for Too much to bear

Click here to add your own comments

May 25, 2013
To Dawn---(too much to bear comments)
by: Anonymous

To Dawn---I just read your post from 5-12-13 and I so agree with everything you said about our Lord and Savior--Jesus Christ. My husband died 6 months ago and I am in such grief and sorrow and missing him. I also look forward to heaven and seeing the face of Jesus and to praise His name and then to be reunited with my dear husband Thank you for expressing your faith; it was good to read.

May 12, 2013
Too Much To Bear
by: Dawn

I am so sorry for all your losses. You stated too much to bear yet you found us hear an are in the right place. I believe we all go thru that same process an wonder how life is going to be an with the Lord's great LOVE an COMFORT we will get thru this together. This is a great place to share all our pain, anger, grief an lift each other up as we should. We are all her for only a short time here on earth an each stone life throws at us is another lesson in life for whats later waiting for us in HEAVEN where they are. All those passed have reached what we will someday have also, a new body without pain, a new mind without sorrow a new life with the CREATOR an one that will NEVER EVER DIE AGAIN, This I look forward to knowing all those ahead of me have attained that happiness. I pray for you each day that your grief will be minimal an the Lord will wrap you tightly in his arms for as long as you need. Much LOVE

Click here to add your own comments

Return to Lost Spouse/ True Love.

[?]Subscribe To This Site
  • follow us in feedly
  • Add to My Yahoo!
  • Add to My MSN
  • Subscribe with Bloglines

RSS Feed Widget


Tap into the compassion, support and wisdom of the


Essential Healing Guide

Grief Relief

Free Griefwork

Free Stress

SBI Video Tour!