Hi, I'm from Croatia, 15 years old and I'm sorry for my English. My mum died 1 year ago. At first I was resigned to the fact that she is dead but now more and more often i miss her and i just want to hug her, be better to her and not just ignore her. her death happened so quick, 2 days she was complaining for some flue and pain in her chests but i didn't took it seriously because she was a strong woman and didn't get sick often. then the third day she went to see a doctor and they told her that it was because of the stress and it will get better, next day she could barely breath and walk up stairs and some kind postman brought her home because of her weakness. I was home alone when she got some seizures so I quickly called emergency doctor but it was too late, she died and I felt so weak that i couldn't help her. I hate myself because I didn't spend more time with her, i was to preoccupied with boys, hair and other teen problems and I ignored her and barely talked to her. I often wonder how this would be if she is alive , I want her back so she can be my best friend that I can tell every secret. I feel so sad because she had not experienced my 15'th birthday and that she won't experience my other beautiful moments in my life, she left so quickly but I hope that she is in a beautiful place now.