I am 28 years old and was with my fiancé for 8 years before he died of colon cancer at the age of 29. It's been a few months since his death but I still feel as sad as the day he passed. He had cancer for the past 5 years and I always thought he would make it. I didn't want to believe that a 29 year old could die of colon cancer and I didn't want to believe that I would have to go on with my life without him. After college I devoted my life to this man and now I am lost without him. I don't know what to do with myself and nothing seems to alleviate the sadness and anger I feel. I left my job and home to move back in with my family thinking I would feel better. All I really ever seem to want to do is sleep. I feel like it's my one escape. I wish I could be happy for all of my friends getting married and succeeding in their jobs but in reality all I feel is anger that the dreams I once had have been destroyed. I know I need to move forward but I can find no motivation to do so.