Tried to revive Father in law.We were too late.
October 17th at 7am in 2011, my mother in law ran into our home next door to thief's screaming that she needed help. I grabbed my robe and yelled to my husband in the rest room, he was getting ready for work, to come next door because of his dad. When I entered the home, he was laying on the floor in front of the restroom. I checked for a pulse but there wasn't one. That meant nothing to me. By this time my husband was beside me and screaming what do we do? We straightened him out and commenced performing CPR. It was too late, but we didn't want to give up. 911 was on the phone and then they were there but still our dad was gone. My husband and his dad had had their ups and downs but had come out of it best friends. My husband was raised old school. Boys and men don't cry and they definately don't show their feelings. I am pretty good at standing by my man as the song says. Recently my husband has entered the anger faze of grieving. Its as if overnight he came down with a horrible case of bi polar. One minute he is so angry at people around him to being so angry at God to being just so angered at his dad leaving him. His father was only 61. I feel like I am in constant battle mode hut I don't even know what I am fighting. Recently, I realized what was going on and have stopped fighting back and just stand by him the best I can. Our last child at home is 17 and he and I just listen to the anger and keep quiet and try to help him through this roughest period. I grieve quietly and by the book basically. But then he was very loved by me but not my father. I just need to know I am doing right by my husband. Everything is strained right now but we have a ways to go. This weekend will be the first fathers day without dad.