10 months ago i got a knock at my door and was delivered the horrific soul destroying news that Stewart my husband had been murdered. Now i feel pain anger and feel i cant go on. My husband was my best friend also he made me feel safe. Why was he taken from me and his mum ? i hate life now i fear life, not death. i have help from familt friends but nothing or noone makes me feel better. I talk to him every day and wish i could hold him and kiss him and tell him how very sorry i am and live him. but i nevwr will again because of some evil murderer.