TRUE LOVE WILL NEVER FADE ...
I lost the love of my life, my soul mate, my best friend and fiancé, Jus, unexpectedly... We had been committed to each other for 7 years and 3 months. We dreamt of starting a family and vowed to marry supposedly last February 8th. I remember this date because our pre nup was supposed to be on February 2013 but had it rescheduled on his birthday -- July 06, 2013. We then agreed that February 2014 is when we should set the big day. Sadly, our dream of getting married faded away because he has to leave, and be with our creator. That was April 21st 2013.
I was lost, I was confused, and I was desperate to find ways on how I could get my life back. It's understandable that an unexpected death is always hard to accept and there is no "quick fix" to grief.
Honestly, I questioned the universe -- "Why does it have to happen to me?” We were inches away from fulfilling our dreams to be together and start a life as a couple and start a family. Every day, I wake up feeling the emptiness and it's hard for me to look back and reminisce the moments that we shared together.
We were in a long distance relationship but it was not a hindrance to us. We find time to travel -- to experience things that we should be doing, to bond, to make up for lost time. We manage to have our own jobs and be good at it, and not get distracted because of not always seeing each other in person whenever we get home.
Despite the loss, I know that I have to move on with my life. I have to start from scratch and continue fulfilling my dreams even if Jus is not around anymore. People tell me my life doesn't end there. Yes, they're right, he may be gone but he is never ever going to be forgotten. He will always be a part of my life.
I want to personally thank all of my friends, our friends, his friends for your sincere prayers. To my parents and my sister for always being supportive and believing in me. And to our creator (Allah/God) for giving me the chance to meet Jus -- he was a wonderful man. I give my trust to our creator because I know he will give me something more to do than grieve.
Today being it's his 1st year death anniversary, I am delivering my heartfelt condolences and sympathies to his family -- to his parents and his brother. May his fond memories and love comfort us now and forever.
Everything happens for a reason. Everyone has to die one day and this is a fact of life. I guess, acceptance is always the key to everything. I am aware that I am taking baby steps and I know I am getting there. My love for you will never fade, Jus. May you rest in peace.