Trying to get through all these feelings

by Tabitha

Five years ago my husband was diagnosed with Glioblastoma Multiforme and he was only 24 at the time and just brought our beautiful son into the world when I receive a phone call from my husband's job that he is sick and that he was coming home. My husband drove home and I ask him to look at me, when he didn't I knew something was wrong. That day was the beginning of a roller coaster in our life.

I always imagined that we would be together to have a house full of children and retired on a beach in the middle of nowhere, just me and him. My husband had surgery and they removed the tumor and did intense chemo and radiation for a year and for four years nothing showed up and then I receive a phone call again from my husband's job saying that he had a seizure at work and was rushed to the hospital to find out that the tumor came back; the doctors at duke were nervous and gave us options that we could do at the time my husband stated he wanted to be here for me and our son as long as possible and decided to do chemo, we went to Disney World in April and really had a wonderful time.

We planned to come back again next year. We got back home and he started feeling weird about losing feeling on his left side. We went to duke and they informed us that the tumor has doubled in size and he went from talking to not talking and just looking around he went down hill from this period and passed away on September 14, 2010.

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Dec 22, 2010
GBM's Suck
by: Errica

I'm feeling your pain, my husband just passed away from a GBM December 7th. He was diagnosed June 2009 and June 2010 he had a second clear MRI. Then at the end of July he suffered a seizure, it was back with a vengeance. They told us it could come back but we thought we would have the 5 year window not 1. I feel lost and helpless. I wish we could have talked more in these last few months but that stupid tumor didn't allow him to communicate well. Such an evil disease!

Dec 22, 2010
Bless You
by: Pat J

I feel your pain. My pain is very new. My husband just passed away on December 3rd. It's been only 2 1/2 weeks. I didn't know I had this many tears to cry. He was on the UNOS list waiting for a heart transplant but that didn't happen. His weary body just gave out.

I'm sorry for your loss of such a young man. I have three young grandsons and my husband's fear was that they wouldn't remember him. It's my job to keep his memory alive. My father-in-law passed away when my daughter was 2 years old and my son was 6. They grew up knowing their grandpa because my husband talked about him on a daily basis. They know everything about their grandpa Bob and really love him. It's painful to do sometimes but I know I have to tell my grandsons all about their grandpa Joe. They too will know him.

Your son was really God's blessing and will always be a reflection of your husband's love.

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