Turned my whole world upside down

Ever since I was young, I was always told my grandma and I were one soul in two separate bodies. She was my everything and she meant millions to plenty of others too. She was my wisdom, best friend, courage, salvation, counselor, teacher, and many others things. I had the privilege of growing up living just a few blocks from her and she was my everything.

She was diagnosed with lung cancer my sophomore year of high school, but she was one tough lady and beat the odds by overcoming the cancer. She had lived with an abusive husband for years before having the courage to take her children and leave... So she knew exactly what strength was. She worked full-time, was a full-time mother, and recieved her masters degree in teaching all while keeping her composure and always being an advocate for anyone who needed her.

I still today base everything I do off the morals and lessons she taught me. I not only had a grandma, I was blessed with someone I considered my savior. No matter what trouble I got in my precious grandma was always there to defend me.

This past summer my grandma's lung cancer came back and rapidly spread to her bones and lymph nodes. I knew this was the beginning of the end and refused to accept it. She passed a few short months after the diagnosis, with my entire extended family surrounding her bedside reading her bible verses.

Today I am left feeling lonely and empty wondering why my best friend had to be taken from me.. I am only 20 years old. Will I be able to survive life without the one person I could always count on? I am hurting.

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Jan 18, 2012
You can survive.
by: Emily

I am so very sorry for the loss of your Grandma.
I know how it feels to have a person who meant the entire world to you and to watch them suffer is even worse.
The answer to your question is yes, you will be able to survive even though it is the hardest thing to do.
My Nan was my best friend, we shared alot of things, she always stuck up for me and showed
me her love. She meant the entire world to me and the day she slipped away was one of the worst days of my life
Two good things came out of it though.
1. She was no longer suffering
2. I was prepared and got to say goodbye
3. She and her husband(My Grandad) are now together for eternity and have been reunited :)
It has been 6 years since I lost my Nan and I still feel it every single day of my life. It does get easier and it will get better
but I am afraid you will never forget her as I will never forget
my Nan or both my Grandad's.
I am 15 and have lost three grandparents
Many ask
how I coped or whatever but there was no easy way because I had to cope and get on with my life there was no choice.
Hope you find comfort <3

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