Two deaths in two years
by kathy rippley
Hi, my name is Kathy. On April 17, 2009, I lost my 66 yr old mother to colon cancer after a very harrowing 7 year battle. While trying to deal with the grief from this and the grief of my children, my 45-yr-old husband developed a lump under a strange mole under his right ear, which I had been begging him to get looked at. The diagnosis: melanoma, the deadliest skin cancer. Despite surgery, high-dose bio/chemotherapy, Gamma-Knife, and a clinical trial, he was dead in 13 months, he lost his battle on July 31, 2010, at the age of 46, leaving me with a 4-yr-old daughter to raise alone, and my 11-yr-old son, who I share custody with my ex-husband with, devastated. I feel like the lone survivor of a war in one of those movies, when the mist clears and all you see is one soldier standing there, surrounded my dead bodies. I am angry, sad, hopeful, devastated, wistful, guilty, sometimes relieved (wow, so I feel guilty when THAT emotion comes along) sometimes all at the same time. I also no longer believe in God. Please help me.