Two Weeks Till It's One Year and Im so so Sad !
In two weeks it will be the one year anniversary of my partners death. I thought that by now things would feel a little better but if anything it all seems worse somehow! This time last year we were both so desperate! Hakan was trying with all his strength to hang on and I was doing my best knowing the end was coming but hoping there would be a miracle.
We spoke about everything and we made plans together. His concern was about me after he was gone. I moved home to NYC after 20 years in Sweden. I know its the right choice but many days I just feel like an alien from another planet!
Everything seems to make me so sad. Making a sandwich,The silverware,T.V., everything !!! So Ive almost made it through the year. Now what? Am I just suppose to feel better? I don't> I guess it's all moving along but a great saddness is always with me.
I pray for all of the people writing on this website. I pray that you all have some peace and that happy times come into your life again. Please pray for me too.