Two years ago today
My husband passed away Nov 22 2009. He had heart problems and diabetes and was terribly sick for a long time.
I woke up this morning and of course he was on my mind and a flood of memories came back.He passed away in his sleep and before falling asleep he said,''I love you so much.'' In the morning I could not wake him. It was terrible. I emailed my mother and told her I needed her and she was on the next plane. I will never forget the kindness of the local police. They made all calls for me and gave me comfort.All my children came and I had a lot of love and support.
Well, it has been a rough 2 years but God helped me.I got a different job and love it and even took classes in Fresno and worked too. I filled the house with new furniture and wondered how my husband would like the changes. I stayed busy but many times I would cry for the one who held me and would say,''You look beautiful, sweetheart.''
He was a wonderful grandpa and the kids still miss him.
I am doing a lot better then I thought. I simply put my trust in the Lord and kept going.
I have changed because I relied on him for everything but have discovered that I am stronger then I thought.I have to make all the decisions.My birthday was 2 days ago on Nov 20th and my husband loved that day.We would go have dinner somewhere.He was nice and he worked hard, providing my needs and even my grandchildren's needs should something come up.God is good and He helped me get through and I look forward to meeting my husband in heaven.I feel stronger now, able to cope and think of my my wonderful family, my 85 yr old mother always comforting. We have 5 generations going as little Aubree came along 10 months ago. How my husband would have adored that little girl. I am thankful that he was in my life.