Two years today

by Jen
(Ireland)

Hello everyone,

Have had a really rough couple of days and this is down to reliving Richards last two days at home before a large seizure hospitalised him and he never got out. Died 7 Weeks later.
We should have had more time. We were due to go on a cruise the next week. We were going to fit in as much as we could in whatever time he had left....We never got the chance. Feeling like this tho i feel has not put me back as i have achieved so much but it is just impossible not to 'feel it'

I am annoyed and frustrated that so much of the past two years, my present and my future has been taken from me and my children.

Just totally peeved off and yes still very very lonely.

I am getting there wherever that is and i will continue to go along this road with my head held high cause when you think about it, what we have been thro is genuinely unbelievable and we are doing so well.

I go thro these couple of days with only all of you to share this with as friends, etc, wouldn't remember dates like this and i wouldn't expect them to.

I just hate all of this but i will not take any steps back, only forward.

Love to you all and thanks always for keeping in touch.
Jen