Violence Changes Everything.

by Cyndi S. Crawford
(Peachtree City, GA, USA)

Twenty-four hours ago, I was the proud owner of three dogs. Today, I'm down to just one.

I had Alvin (who was a yellow lab/hound mix), Trixie (a black lab/pit bull mix), and I have Rufus (a full-blooded pit bull).

Trixie and Rufus had a habit of ganging up on Alvin and picking on him. Most of the time, he would run away and position himself in a place where they couldn't easily get to him.

Well, yesterday, I walked into the kitchen to find something to eat, but saw Trixie standing over Alvin, who was lying on the ground and covered in blood. Rufus was nearby, but keeping his distance.

My sister had witnessed the fight--Rufus and Trixie had, as usual, decided to pick on Alvin, but apparently Alvin decided to fight back instead of just running away, and this made Trixie so angry that she went from merely picking on him to getting into a full-on fight with him.

She won. Alvin was lying in a pool of his own blood and refused to move because he was so hurt. My sister (or her husband) had called the police by this point, who had come over to investigate. I offered to take Alvin to the animal emergency room to see if he could be fixed up, and my sister and her husband were going to follow me with Trixie to have her put to sleep for viciously attacking another animal, as ordered by my father (who is out of town with my mother to visit and help out with their elderly parents).

The police officers who showed up were very kind and helped us put Alvin in my car, and gave us the address to the emergency room. Then, we were off.

To make a long and agonizing story short, Alvin's injuries, while not the worst that the staff had ever seen, were too extensive (and expensive) to take the risk of keeping him alive. Not to mention, the very likely possibility of PTSD for him, having been torn up so badly, made it too risky to consider letting him live--his personality might have changed for the worse to where he would be violent to Rufus or to my sister's three children--so we opted to have him put to sleep.

I volunteered to stay with both Alvin and Trixie while they were put to sleep--best decision of my life. I've never had that opportunity before and was glad that I took it this time.

I haven't been able to cry about this yet. I feel numb and indifferent, but angry and upset all at once. It doesn't seem real, and I have no idea what to do with myself because of it. I don't know what to do, or how to deal with it. I've lost pets before, I've hurt deeply from those losses, and I grieved--but I had never lost a pet, let alone two in the same day, due to violence.

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Dec 17, 2013
so sorry to hear what happened
by: Heidi

I’m so sorry for what you’re having to go through. The breed doesn’t matter. Animals are individuals just like people are individuals. We’ve lost two animals around the same time from illnesses – twice. Two dogs within 3 weeks of each other. And a cat and a dog within 4 weeks of each other. It’s devastating. But I’m sure it’s much worse when it was an attack that caused both to end up dieing. I know you’re grieving for both Alvin and Trixie. Just know they are in Heaven. I believe that all animals go to Heaven. God made animals so cool so why wouldn’t he want them in Heaven too. You sound like you gave them wonderful lives and cared for them very much so you can be comforted knowing that. Rufus will need more attention now after losing two of his pack. Animals grieve too so he needs you now more than ever and you can comfort each other.

Dec 17, 2013
by: Diane

I feel so sorry for you, please accept my condolences on losing two of your precious dogs. Just like people, dogs can 'snap' and kill even the ones they love. There was NOTHING you could have done, you had no idea it could get that bad. I cry for Alvin, for his pain and bewilderment, but also for Trixie who most likely had no idea what she did wrong.But you did the right thing, it has definitely been proven that once a dog kills a domestic animal, the next step is to attack a human, maybe even a child, which would have been tragic. You are still in shock, anger and guilt, both are normal right now. Later you will grieve for them both, for different reasons. Please know that we will share your grief and try to help you through this in any way we can. Bless you for going through this, may God help you to heal.Please take care of yourself, your other baby needs you. I'm sure your remaining dog is grieving too. RIP beautiful Alvin and Trixie, may you both heal at the Rainbow Bridge!

Dec 17, 2013
Violence changes Everything
by: Doreen UK

Cyndi I am sorry for your loss of Trixie and Alvin. Every relationship with our pets is different. You perhaps did not realise you had a stronger bond with Trixie and Alvin which is why you feel the grief so bad.
You say you don't know what to do with yourself? You are feeling so many conflicting emotions all at once. Best take care of yourself. Start by treating yourself special and build on this. This nurturing is going to build you up through your grief. Give time and space to feel your pain, anger, sorrow, whatever. Cry as much as you need to. This is the nature of grief. These emotions and feelings will not last too long. Also take one day at a time because each day will be different. Keep a journal and write out all your feelings and emotions. Give expression to these in your journal. You will feel some sense of freedom and release from your sorrow and anger. New memories will start to appear. You will have good days and bad days. Give yourself a lot of time before you buy yourself another dog. don't deny yourself this pleasure of giving and receiving love from another dog. Take the focus off yourself and onto a new dog. This way you will hold them loosely and not so close that you will find it hard when you lose them. Love with boundaries. You will go on to have a special relationship again. It just takes time.

Dec 16, 2013
by: Anonymous

I am sorry for your loss pit bulls are natural killers they kill little kids and other nice dogs all the time we just had and old man in our town who was badly mauled by one in his own yard. You need to get a nice dog next time if you can heal from your loss. Sara

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