Walter hanna husband

by Walter hanna
(Irving, Texas USA)

Kaye and I met in January 1970, after a couple of weeks of talking on the phone, I get the courage to ask her out. Kaye was 17 1/2 and I was 21. Kaye looked almost identical to Priscilla Presley when they got married. We dated for two weeks and decided to get married, we buy our engagement rings in three weeks after first going out. We got married on May 8' 1970. It was a church wedding and Kaye wore that white dress in pride and honesty.

We started having our family in 4 years and 7 years, we were blessed with two great sons.

We both gave it all we had to help them through college and now both are very successful businessmen.

Kaye was the love of my life. I was the love of her life, . Fast forward to November 2011', Kaye as having some problems, went to the doctor and from there we went downhill. She was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer of the brain and lungs. I watchd her get weaker and weaker and the love of my life was fading right before my eyes. We never had any time to talk as we were all fighting the cancer stuff. We had a very good support staff with all those treatments. Than we get to the chemo crap. She lost her battle as she could not get through the chemo. The 2nd treatment put her in the hospital and we lost her to heaven in 7 days. We all lived at the hospital sleeping on the floor and couches.

The hardest thing I had to do I. Our whole life was to spend about 4 years in private in her last day. I spoke to her starting at our beginning, our two boys, our struggles in our journey, how much she meant to me and how she alone saved me from the dark side of life. Than after telling her our story and how much she means to me. I had to start talking about her condition. How er have lost this battle. I had to tell her it was okay to go to heaven. That was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I had to let her go because she was suffering. After 7 days in the hospital and her life fading in front of me, I never had a chance to be alone with her because of other folks intruding into my family. Basically staying in my way where I did not get our private time till the end of her time. After spending about 4 hours that /Sunday morning talking to her as I knew she was listening, but could not talk, I left to go back to our waiting area and about 10 minutes the nurse rushes in and say we are losing her,
Kaye was leaving 10 minutes after I tell her it is okay to go to heaven,

We all rushed back to her room, we gathered around her, I held her little hand and had my head on the bed face down very close to her, the nurse with a beautiful voice was singing Amazing Grace and when the song finished, I look up and my wife of 42 years had gone to heaven .

Excuse any mispe
Ls because I am crying and barely see my iPad letters,

Our 42 anniversary is this week on may 8th. My youngest son birthday is may 9th and Mothers day is May 13.

So I will be asking Kaye to stay close to me in spirit as mich as possible,
A day does not go by without me crying, I have cried more in the last two months than my whole loire, I am 62 now.

I just don't know how someone can ever move forward after this, Kaye was only 59 when I lost her.

Nothing helps and I don,t know anything can help, no words or cliches helps. I just know she is gone and I have to live on without her.

God bless

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May 11, 2012
One Day At a Time
by: TrishJ

Walter~
I know how you feel. I lost my husband 18 months ago after a long horrible illness. I feel so lost without him. I was 19 when we met. We were married for 37 years. I don't know much of life without him.
I miss him so much. We do, somehow, manage to move on but it's not the same. We move on to something different. I miss waking up to "I love you honey" every morning. I miss his sense of humor. I miss falling asleep with him.
The hardest thing for me to handle is the fear of a new life without Joe. When you are with someone for so long we truly become one person. I feel like half of me is missing.
Take this very slowly. Try see the little signs that your wife is still with you. We do adjust but it's a constant work in progress. The one thing that can never be taken from you is your wife's love. That will be with you until you see her again.
God bless.

May 07, 2012
She is there with you
by: Nancy

Walter, Kaye has left love prints all over you - she has not left you nor will she ever. She has given you the best years of her life and you have given her the best you had. Go out and be strong - give to others the memories that she has blessed you with - don't let others forget that she was the Angel that God blessed you with - for the many years. For the sake of your sons and future grand babies let her live on....it sounds like you had a blessed relationship and you didn't let her go..you gave her back to God...who let you look after her for awhile...and it was just time to give His child back to Him....let her love live on.....Nancy

May 07, 2012
One Day at A time
by: Judith in California

Walter, I can only say I know of your grief and know of the pain. I lost my husband 20 months ago and tho it's not as horrible as it was at first I still miss him everyday. Even tho I have moved on in a lot of ways I still miss US. The memories of his illness and his dying will be with me forever. Even tho I have moved forward a bit there is a part of me missing and no one will ever fill that void. It's his and his alone that part of my heart.

God be with you and help you to be strong each minute, each hour each day ...one day at a time.

May 07, 2012
One Day at A time
by: Judith in California

Walter, I can only say I know of your grief and know of the pain. I lost my husband 20 months ago and tho it's not as horrible as it was at first I still miss him everyday. Even tho I have moved on in a lot of ways I still miss US. The memories of his illness and his dying will be with me forever. Even tho I have moved forward a bit there is a part of me missing and no one will ever fill that void. It's his and his alone that part of my heart.

God be with you and help you to be strong each minute, each hour each day ...one day at a time.

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