We had a rocky road

by Rachael Stroud
(Scott, LA)

My mother and I have always butted head ever since I was 8 years old. She gave full custody to my dad when I was 8 and my brother was 5. She really wasn't the mother figure. She did what she wanted and came around whenever she had no where else to go. I was always being the mom to her and my brother. She never worked or had anything of her own that she worked for. My dad provided us with everything we needed. We always argued about everything because neither one of us ever though we were wrong. My mom passed away on August 27, 2012, 9 days after my 19th birthday. She was hit by a car walking to my house to come check on me. Even though I hear this all the time I know it isn't my fault, but deep down inside I still think it is. Her death was so sudden and an accident. I didn't think that at 40 she would pass away. Now today March 15, 2013 is her 41st birthday. I'm celebrating it alone instead of with her like I usually do. There isn't a day that goes by that she doesn't cross my mind, I just wish I had one more day with her.

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Mar 16, 2013
We had a rocky road
by: Doreen U.K.

Rachael I am sorry for your loss of your mom to a sudden death. You are not to blame for your mother's death. This was an unforeseen tragedy. I think you feel guilty because she was on the way to your house and if she hadn't taken this journey to see you ~~~~~you feel she would still be here? BUT. There is no guarantee. It is just human nature kicking in and kicking us down when we don't need it. Allow someone to come alongside you and pick you up and dust you off and help you get through this awful grief journey. You are so young to lose a mom and your mom was so young to not go on to enjoy some years of living. Some people don't want to live and perhaps live a long life. Many want to live and don't want to die. They are the ones who die. My husband was one of these in the statistics who wanted to live and died too soon at 65yrs. I guess if we knew when we were going to die, we would live life differently. Perhaps better. Pack more into life. Fight less, and Love more. Tell each other in our world that WE LOVE THEM. Perhaps something to think of doing regardless of TIME and knowing.
All rocky roads in life lead to the same end. DEATH. None of us will have an easy ride or a trouble free path. But along the way we can redeem the time whilst we still have it.

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