We lost our Family Pilar
My Mom was 85 years old and in great shape, she had the best memory and remembered all birthdays of all her 10 kIds, all 28 grand Kids and all 8 great grand kids, she was smart as a whip. Every year for her birthday we made a big celebration and people would travel to attend her big Party. She wasn't much of a partier but she really enjoyed this yearly event because she had all her family together. Her Family was everythig to her. She was very sweet Catholic woman who taught all her family to be close. We never fought or argued since she taught us all to love one another and treat each other with respect. she was the Family Pilar. My father passed away 15 years ago and she helped us all pull through.
Now we lost her on January 25 2013 and we are all lost, not sure how to live our lives without her. Even though the Doctors said that she would pull through she felt in her heart that her time to go was here and she got to say her good byes to all her Family. She tried to prepare us and told us to be strong and not to cry for her, she also asked that we always remain close and to always reach out to one another in times of need and to always be there for each other. She also left a letter behind for us asking us to help people who needed help, even if they were strangers. She always fed the hungry, shared whatever little money she had to help others in need and asked that my Sisters and i always help others when she would no longer be around.
She truly had a heart of gold and because of this it is so hard to live without her. My Sisters and i still cry everyday. WE dont know how to live without her, We just hold each other tight and cry together huddled up. She was our everything, kept us all together and we never took her for granted. When she was hospitalized we kept her Company 24 hours a day 7 days a week just so she wouldnt feel lonely. On the Morning she passed i had just left for home at 2am when i got the call from my Sister that Mom had left this world at 7:29am. I regret leaving her. i felt as though i was always there for her but WHY WASNT I THERE WHEN SHE NEEDED ME THE MOST! I Wanted to hold her hand while she took her last breath and i think she wanted me there too. We know she is in Heaven now with my DAD but we miss her terribly.
GOD help everyone who is grieving the loss of their Mother and give them strength and serenity.