we met on the 7/7/77
We thought it would be forever, meeting as we did on that special date.
And of course for my wife it was forever, but now I am alone without her, we looked out for each other, took care of each other, but now I am drinking too much, only beer though, not spirits, my daughter is obviously precious to me, she lives 200 miles away, but with my blessing, she needs to keep busy and get on with her life. I was fortunate whilst growing up, I never lost anyone who was really close. But in 2006 I lost my mum, she was a big influence in my life I miss her enormously, she was the one I would turn to when in need, but my wife filled that gap, we grew even closer and now she is gone as well. Its very strange, we were together for 33 years, struggled through tough times, we were just beginning to see the fruits of our labours, holidaying twice a year, having a bit more spare cash, then out of the blue she was diagnosed with lung cancer (its quite hard to print that last sentence), we thought we had 3-5 years to fight it, but 10 months later she died, in retrospect it was all so quick, the only thing I would say is if you are diagnosed with cancer, and you want to know how serious it is, ask your doctor this question HOW LONG DO I HAVE TO LIVE, if we had done that then I think we would have managed the last months of my wife`s life better. My dad died in February, he had a heart condition which meant he could not breathe very well, just like my my wife, same pills, same syringe driver, same oxygen machine,same deterioration, same outcome, death. You expect to lose your parents as you go through life, but nothing prepares you for losing your best friend, lover, wife, the one who keeps you sane, the one who makes life worth living and the one who sometimes is a nice pain in the ass but you love her anyway. I have cried every day for 18 months since my wife died, all I can say is I keep believing tomorrow will be a better day because that is what my wife used to say when she was very ill, and sometimes tomorrow was a better day, just when we thought she was beyond hope, she would wake up and find the energy to go out for the day she was was quite a remarkable person, I was privileged to know her, I will miss her forever, and I will keep believing in tomorrow, though no-one will ever take her place in my heart.