we only value things when they are lost.... Why?
My Grand father who 89 Years of age passed away today it saddens me as he was in Pakistan and I had migrated to Canada two years ago. I always thought that he is an active person who still has some years left in his life and it will give me a chance to see him one more time as I planned to visit him in a year or so but sadly last night I got the news from my sister that he has passed away.
I feel so guilty and sad no one can understand it because most of the relatives weren’t even close to him except me as I was his most favorite child in the family and he was the nicest to me out of all my cousins he took me for walk in my pram daily got me candy everyday made sure I never got scolded for my naughtiness around the house.
Its just sad that how busy my life had gotten ever since I came here to Canada I kept stressing over things like how to get my documents done how to get a job what to study get a mortgage I was so consumed in my own life that somewhere I had forgotten that there was this man in my life who was so important to me he threw such amazing birthday parties every year till I became fifteen and thought I had enough of the childish birthdays.
I hate myself for not being able to spend time with him he was so literate and educated honest man.
We had a servant who was a child who helplessly asked my grandfather to give home work or else his family would die of hunger as in Pakistan poverty in a big issue. My Grandpa said ‘’ sure I will give you work but I have a deal to make with you before I hire you’’ the kid said’’ what???’’
And my Grand pa asked him to be home schooled till such time he completed high school and then later go get a degree . Today that boy is an engineer because my Grandpa taught him every single day from that day onwards till he was 18.
That boy left our house at the age of 18 to peruse engineering and became and engineer till this day he cant thank him enough.
But the sad bit is that his own children never gave him that respect the only one who slightly understood him was me I love him to pieces today he passed away and I couldn’t even make it to his funeral as I am unemployed don’t have the finances to go I feel so many things at this hour I didn’t know what to do or whom to speak when I just found this blog hence I am posting my story.
My Grandpa was a teacher and he even taught tuitions after he retired he believed education is the only key to success he wasn’t very religious but he was the kindest man ive known I hope he goes to heaven.