What I miss the Most
Roger has been gone 1 year and 1 month. Yesterday was my birthday. I spent it all alone. No one called . My kids sent cards. But to be all alone on a day he made so special. Yet, what I miss the most is that there is no one to tell my thoughts to. Those thoughts that are so unimportant to other people-but he would listen to. Those thoughts about life around us, the kids, just my feelings - there is no one to tell them to and I miss that so much. I am going through a depression right now and Roger would nave been able to talk me out of it. He always could. But now there is not even anyone to tell these feelings to because they all think I am doing so great. Actually I am faking it and no one knows the pain and the turmoil my heart is in. I really don't know where to turn and it hurts so bad!