What Now , 6 months and all is still the same!
19 years with husband/friend and now he is gone. No children, parents are gone, just the dogs to comfort me. My family (half sister and brothers) have conveniently disappeared and I am so lonely wondering why my sister cannot be here for me. How am I 53 working and figuring out how to live out the rest of my lonely life. What happened to the little old couple sitting in Luby's eating dinner? I am a strong person, and certainly thought that I would cry and move on as I have not been affected by this grief before not even with the passing of a mother and father. I seem to have missed my 17 year old dog more than them. How sad is that? The last year of John's life was a emotional roller coaster dealing with cancer and always hoping for the best but eventually the cancer won. How do you survive the thought and vision ingrained in your head of your loved one taking their last breath? How do you make that horrible vision go away and not come back to haunt you anymore? How do you pretend like it all never happened and is just a bad dream.
All I can say is God please help me, if you have planned out my life, I can only hope and pray that you have a special someone/family out there waiting to find me.
I am certain others feel the same but how is it that so called friends just walk away without trying to comfort and help.
God please help me please..........