what the heck?!

by jeannie

I've lost my my mom in 2010, my husband in 2011, two friends in 2012, my dad in January 2013. I found out a month ago another dear friend has acute leukemia. Ive known him since first grade. We got to be really close in the past three years. He's been there for me through all these losses. Would even call me and tell me football scores when I couldn't watch the game! I went to see him a few weeks ago in the hospital. He grabbed my hand and held it tight for a long time. His dad called me today and told me he took a turn for the worst this weekend. Its just a matter of time. What am I gonna do without him? My funny, smart, precious friend. Im so tired of seeing people I love suffer, then losing them. I know god loves me, I have precious friends, a great family. I am truly blessed. But what the heck is going on?!

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Dec 15, 2013
thank you
by: jeannie

Thank each of you for your kind thoughts about my losses. Reading what you wrote really helps. You are each a source of compassion, strength and inspiration! God bless you....Jeannie

Nov 21, 2013
yup, I relate
by: Anonymous

I'd had several deaths and illnesses in just seven weeks. I am asking 'what is going on?!' myself. I am angry and confused. I have no good advice except to say I relate very much to that question.

Nov 07, 2013
what the heck?
by: silver

Dear Jeannie,I too sent my mother on in June 2010 and my husband in May 2011.I also sent my father on in Dec. 2009,and my friend of 28 yrs in May 2010.I know how you feel.I went to 5 funerals in 17 months.(my niece and nephews sent on their other grandmother 2 weeks after my mother). It is so hard.You are still reeling from one when the next one hits.My husband was the hardest though.Thankfully,you believe in GOD.Thankfully,you aren't hating GOD for taking the ones you love.I totally believe GOD took them to prevent their suffering more.My baby sister died in 2001 and she was such a sensitive soul that I think she would not have lasted when our dad died,let alone our mother or my husband(they were joking buddies).She was also close to her mother-in-law.My father had suffered with cancer for 13 yrs.My friend had open heart surgery for a mal-functioning heart valve.My mother has Alzheimer's and soon I would have had to take her rights away from her.My husband had emphysema and only had 40% of his lungs left when he got pneumonia.While he was unconscious they found a tumor in one of his lungs.So I believe that's why GOD took them home.I keep all of us in my prayers.GOD send you strength and peace.

Nov 03, 2013
What the heck?
by: Anonymous

I really feel for you, I have lost 3 uncles and my sister in a relatively short space of time (3years). I am not coping too well, one minute I'm fine and the next I'm in bits. I think all we can do is take each day at a time and cope with it the best we can. I try and tell myself that things will get better....they have to! I wish you all the best, take care of yourself x

Oct 30, 2013
what the heck?!
by: Doreen UK

Jeannie I am sorry for all these losses in your life which make you feel "What the heck? is going on. Life can be very cruel for many people with multiple losses. Especially losing supportive friends and family will make you feel worse and a bit insecure. We all need people in life that we can relate to and who add and contribute to our well being in Life. When we lose them we can feel devastated for a long time. I felt like this when my husband of 44yrs. died 18 months ago of cancer. He was always supportive when I lost family members or his family members and we went through it together. I feel lost and alone now having to face all of life's events on my own. I will often want to tell him what is happening, and realise he is not here. I am thankful I have God in my life and God is the first person I turn to, but God knows we were created for relationship with People and we do need this human contact in order to make us feel complete. We will carry on losing people from our life and it is devastating when it happens. I got through my grief taking one day at a time. I also changed my focus and nurtured myself at a time when grief assaults one's body. May God comfort you through your many losses and bring you through your grief and comfort you.

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