What To Do Now?
by r j j m
(Hamilto ontario canada)
First Dad the R and then Ro, April 2011 was DAd then i found my best friend on the couch in may 2011 then 10 months later My younger brother Ro. I found his obit on the internet by accident. I did not go to any of the first two funerals. so i was not in touch with the family.
our family had lost three brothers too young to die. who is to old? death is natural!? B was 26. drowned and never found his body. J was 26 . 5 yrs after B. J overdosed. R was the Baby of the family and killed himself at 32 yrs. 10 yrs after J. 1977 .1982 and 1993. Ma was 62 1986.
so the two younger than me are dead and the two older are dead. there are three others i have no contact with. Right Now that is. This is difficult to put write about. I do know and understand what happened. My choice not to go to the funerals. Still very costly to me and almost didn't make it. Why i am writing this is even a mystery to me.
There is much to write about. tragic death and loss. Drug Crime lifestyle family dynamics. Sorrow so deep. I have gained much strength over this past three years. I am still young a 55 yrs. health is everything. I almost died in a fire in November 2013. Good to be Alive! Finally!! looking for a way to help others thank you all and pray for all