what wil become of me??
I am now over three yrs into the unwanted journey.
Things are improving and life is moving on. The kids now 18 and 16 are my rock. I amhappiest when I jave them around and at that age I see them slowy disappearing into work, social life and being teenagers.
I am ready to begin and try and find myself a new life. Scary and all as it is. I find this incredible lonliness and isolation intolerable and - find cracks beginning ti emerge again. I'm crying lots again, uncontrollably.
I'm lonely, so so lonely. My kids will be up and away very soon anmd the thought of that really scares me. I am so frightened of what will become of me. I'm 41 yrs old!!
Love to u all