What's wrong with me?
My ex and I separated over six years ago (divorce finalized two years later). Our sons were 14, 12, and 9 at the time. My ex moved in with the mother of my youngest son's two friends (her husband left). They lived nearby. At first, the boys lived with me in the matrimonial home, but two years ago, I moved about 35 km away because I could no longer afford to pay the bills, and I could not stand living so close to his Dad and his girlfriend.
Many of the neighbours "took sides" against me. My youngest son preferred to be with his Dad because it was so much fun with his friends there. Also, there were many planned outings, trips to cottages, extended family gatherings, etc., whereas I was struggling to make ends meet, and very isolated. When I moved, he and his brothers moved in with their Dad. Now, in spite of trying everything, my sons rarely want to see me. (My family of origin has shunned me because I lost my sons and failed to "play their game.")
The latest "problem" is that when my ex travels, the youngest stays with his best friend's family. He (the son) plays hockey, and my ex asked me to drive him to his games while he is away. I cannot bear the thought of knocking on the door of his "new mother's" house and picking him up. However, if I refuse to drive him, both my son and his Dad will be very angry at me, and I risk never seeing my youngest son again. Any suggestions about what to do would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.