WHEN DADDY WENT AWAY

by steve jr
(long island , new york )

hello all that may read this . My dad died too , he was 53 years old and i am 27 , my friends and family are very supportive. he died on 01/20/11 , he was a good man . the truth is i thought i was going insane (literally) . i my self am an emt on an ambulance , 40 hours a week . my father had a lot of medical problems but he never gave up . multiple surgeries , dialysis , cardiac condition(S) , you name it he pushed through it. i think the hardest part is that when i was younger i was a very bad kid . not working , smoking pot , just an overall jack&ss and now i will always regret being such an idiot in my early years . i out grew that and became something . being in the medical field i was always able to help him with his issues ( medical). it gave me a sense of, i dont know . just that im there for him i guess. and now that he is gone . and he has fought his last battle, i know he is at piece . but the worst part is , i myself , have to now be the "MAN" and well ,.... im still really messed up with this , and i sympathize for all of you that must go through this . i have two things that keep me going ... A. i know he wants me and my family to live on , and im sure that all of your fathers have the same view about all of you . and

B. this song below . its amazing . sad. and just strait up therapeutic. i wish all of you the best , and to live long happy lives , thats what all the dads of the world want .

enjoy this , it may give hope and a sense of ,, hey it ok. life is much bigger then this .
this song is from :
Someday Never Comes Lyrics
Artist(Band):Creedence Clearwater Revival

First thing I remember was askin' papa, "Why?",
For there were many things I didn't know.
And Daddy always smiled; took me by the hand,
Sayin', "Someday you'll understand."

CHORUS:
Well, I'm here to tell you now each and ev'ry mother's son
You better learn it fast; you better learn it young,
'Cause, "Someday" Never Comes."

Well, time and tears went by and I collected dust,
For there were many things I didn't know.
When Daddy went away, he said, "Try to be a man,
And, Someday you'll understand."

CHORUS

And then, one day in April, I wasn't even there,
For there were many things I didn't know.
A son was born to me; Mama held his hand,
Sayin' "Someday you'll understand."

CHORUS

Think it was September, the year I went away,
For there were many things I didn't know.
And I still see him standing, try'n' to be a man;
I said, "Someday you'll understand."