when does the pain stop
I left him but the grief is all mine. I was with my partner for 16 years. He was my one and I saw myself being with him till the end.
Our relationship certainly wasn't the best of relationships. I loved him. I was in love with him. At the end I was under a lot of stress which had built up over the years and got some bad advice that I didn't think through properly.
I left but in my heart, I expected to return. He never loved me and I knew that but I guess I never thought he would move on so quickly.
If I could take it back I would. I'd live out my days with him even knowing he would never love me. I wasn't happy then but there were moments of happiness which got me by.
I have no heart to find myself another man. I have become a semi-recluse. It's as painful as it was in the beginning though it's been almost five years. I still love him. The pain never stops. It's worse than in the beginning because the hopes and dreams I made up back then are all gone.
I can't see the end of pain.