To My Quinn
When does this become real?
When will my heart accept the sudden loss of you?
When will the tears cease to flow?
When will this aching pain in my soul go away?
When will I feel able to truly smile and enjoy a day?
When will I be allowed to stop pretending that my heart isn't broken and my soul isn't lost
When will this new normal, become my normal
Everyday, every moment, every second I can't believe that this is my life.
whose life am I living because mine has went away the day my love, my son my one and only died so sudden one day.
I am no longer strong, I am no longer confident. I am no longer happy and I care about nothing else.
I am empty and fake, I don't know who I am I think about dying daily and wish it to be true, something I used to fear I would welcome it with glee.
16 years of loving you leads to 9 months of missing you. what to do how to begin again,
Why begin again a life so empty it can never be filled.
Living on memories so sweet yet painful I just don't know when I will be able to be me again
or when I will see you again because that is when my life will begin again.