Where is everyone
My mother was a selfish woman who did not possess a good heart. She starved herself to death in front of my father and finally he had a heart attack from daily looking after her and begging her to eat.
I wanted to help him but she wouldn't let me come. She hated me and I never gave her a reason to hate me. She had some sort of mental disorder.
Finally she died and I did not care one bit because she was always hateful towards me but it concerned me about my Dad. I was suppose to go visit him again 7 days after his death - so it turned out. I had booked a flight one week too late. I wanted to live with him and take care of him: she did a job on him: he was in chronic heart failure.
He died July 20 2012 and it is
September 22 and I am getting worse not better.
Everyone bailed on me. None of my friends came to the funeral or anything. Everyone always only cares about my daughter, It's like I am a nonperson. No one respects me, no one loves me.
I can't even move. I sit in my apartment and the total lack of love has me shocked and immobilized.
Everything went to pieces when my Dad died. I don't know if I will get through this one.
I loved my dad so much. My mother spent my life trying to destroy my relationship with my dad and even had to take him with her by killing him.
Don't tell me to go to counseling. I have no money and its past that.