Who knew it could be this bad?

by Rita
(Indianapolis)

i miss them all my son and my only child my mom,dad,uncle,aunt,brother and sister. The one year point of my son is march 1st. The pain and suffering he went through was more than the average person could have endured. He did not want to go he had 2 babies he wanted to see grow up. He was not ready nor was i. We held a vigil by his bed as we had done too many times before for the other family members who left. Of course i was still hoping for God to step in and give us one of those miracles, nope not to be. I found out a cousin that i am not close too now is in the same battle with the big C. It brought it all back knowing all to well what she is going through. The fear that they know they are dying and they are scared. The tears flowed for her it is horrible to think what their minds are racing and thinking. How cruel the chemo radiation your body ravaged and you know the end is near, heartbreaking. I said a prayer and asked God to please comfort her and make her nightmares go away, well i think God is mad at me so i hope he will please help. I can only hope she gets the comfort and her fears will ease.