Why can't we be like the Mayfly
(Queensland, Australia )
The Mayfly only lives for one day. Often I think this would be great you wouldn't have time for so many feelings, caring for someone, loving someone so much that when they are suddenly taken away that you get ripped apart.
Today is July 30th 2012, today is 5 years. This is how we remember things and recall things happening from this date. From when you dad was still here and after he was gone.
He was my friend, he was the glue who everything together, he was the one who listened to me and answered all my questions. He was my rock.
Even though my dad was diagnosed with cancer and we were lucky enough to have two and half years of additional time, You never really think it will ever happen. You think you have prepared yourself but really you are so numbed and the pain from dealing with all the treatments become the normal.
The motto 'live for the day' became our life and from a tv advert I learn t about the Mayfly which lives for a day. This has become the only way to deal with you being gone. I have had to learn to take little steps and little breaths just to deal.
I wish days that where happy ones were the dates I remembered instead of today but they are just not.
I honestly still don't know what to do without my dad. I just wish that I could have one more day.