Why did you have to go so soon?

by Melanie
(Jackson, tn, USA )

I'm 17 fixing to be 18 in may. I lost my mom August 11,2011 to a disease called cystic fibrosis he was only 46 years old. My mom was my best friend, the only support I had, and the only one to show me affection, my dad has never been affectionate and it suck specially dealing with a tragedy like this. My mom used to embarrass the hell out of me calling me "wonder woman" and "sunshine", now id do anything just to hear her say that again. she was deff the biggest knuckle head I know! I used to take the things she did for me for granted because I thought she's a mom she's supposed to do the things she does, when in reality I had life good compared to others. Cystic fibros is a horrible disease to live with and I'm thankful I had my mom while I did and I'm lucky I am here... She beat her odds by 30 years, I just can't help to think why so soon? Why couldn't my mom keep fighting? Well, I kind of think me telling her I didn't want to see her in pain anymore had something to do with it. I wasn't saying I was ready to let her go cause really no one is ever ready to fully let go of someone. I just wanted her to know that I was okay and That I knew she loved me with all of her heart<3 i love you mom and miss you rip..

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Oct 02, 2012
by: jannine

these story hav made me cry so much ! i have cf 23years old and have a baby boy whos 3 and i know one day he is gna b so sad and it hurts so much x

Apr 29, 2012
by: Anonymous

I'm the same age as you and my mum had CF too. She was ten years younger than yours. You're the first person I've managed to find that has lost a mum to CF. Thank-you very much for posting this; I said the exact same thing to my mum and in a way, it's reassuring to know that somebody else somewhere has had such a similair horrible experience. I hope you're as okay as you can be.

Apr 01, 2012
You are too young not to have your mom
by: Nancy

I am sorry that your mom had to leave you so soon. To be 18 and not to have your mom - just does not seem to be fair. I hope that you have a favorite aunt or a grandma or someone who can fill that position for you..You say that your dad is not affectionate..just don't ever think for a moment that he does not love you...you can trust every thing around you that he does..Learning to love yourself can be one of the hardest things to do ... but it sounds like you are on the right path... do whatever you need to do...as long as it is healthy to take care of yourself..you deserve the best..
Praying for you.

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