I am still trying to deal with the death of my mom 9 years ago. She died at the age of 44 from the disease lupus.
I often wonder why her? She was the most positive person that I know. I haven't dealt with her death at all. When her name comes up in a conversation, I always change the subject. I haven't been really living since her death.
I just want to be able to be happy again. I know that she would want me to live life to the fullest but I just don't know how anymore. Is grieving this long normal?