Why my Brother? Why Justin?
Me and My brother on his 21st birthday
I lost my brother on December 19, 2012 on both my parents birthday. I am still in shock that he is gone because it was so sudden. I knew he had problems with percosets but I thought he was doing better after joining a fraternity at temple which I thought would of straightend him out. He was nodding out and acting bizzare during thanksgiving break and when he came home for winter break. He was nodding out alot days before he died when he was driving and I was freaking out. But there were days where he looked beautiful, where his face was shining and looked totally fine. I knew he was on something and i tried talking to him but he just said he was tired and told me to stop asking him. On December 19th, i got a call from my mom that my brother had died and i was just in shock like what do you mean? The cops fond heroin packets on him which gave me loss for words.The night before he died he came home and said to my dad before he went to bed, "goodnight dad i'll see you for your birthday tomorrow, goodnight dad I love you."I cry everyday and I can't believe i have to live with this for the rest of my life. I still do not believe it. Me and my brother were so close we had the best connection ever. I lost my best friend over something so stupid he did. He always thought he was invincible. I want to see his face and hear his voice again; I want him to suprisingly knock on my door and show up. But I know that will never happen. I love you Justin and my life will never be the same...Your the only person I looked up and you were my idol. I just have to ask why? Why poison your body with horrible toxins? Why couldn't you think before you act? Why couldn't you just go into in patient rehab? Why couldn't you just listen to me dad or mom when we tried to help you? These are questions that we will never figure out. I love you, I miss you, and this is how it will stay forever.