I wonder why people don't want to be with me because I am now alone. I wonder why no one wants me to talk about him. I wonder why they don't understand that he was the love of my life and I love remembering him and talking about him. Sure it makes me cry, they would cry too. But they can't expect me to forget what a wonderful life I had. How he was always there for me. How we did everything together.
But not to talk about him- not to remember those beautiful moments we had together. Is that what they call moving on? Then I don't want to.
I don't know what they mean by moving on. I want to hold on to him for the rest of my life. I read here about people who have lost loves years ago and your pain is still there. Do people think it will just stop?
I love him so much and I miss him and I don't know what I am going to do.