Wife died from suicide
Married 25 years. She was smart, artistic, energetic, constantly
Growing and learning, caring, rescued several animals, sensitive and
Beautiful. She overcame a father that was abusive to her mother and
Losing her mother in a trajic accident. She was afflicted with alcoholism.
We were separated 3 years and went to counseling last 6 months. We
Respected each other and loved each other but had hard time talking
I made mistakes and got involved in things that hurt her deeply while
In counseling. We had resolved alot of our issues and had a great day
But she had stress that lead to a tragic impulsion. there were clear
Signs I should have seen. I feel guilty and ashamed. We were so close and
Both were trying best we could. I miss what could have been. I didn't
Protect my baby. I cry every day. In counseling, going to church, spendin
Time with family and friends, eating right, and excersing. Been 3 months
and it hurts so bad. She didn't deserve this. I know she is at peace. I read
The bible and understand that my sins can be forgiven.. I feel so empty.
I'm afraid I'm going to forget what I loved and our good times.
I know I have to make a decision. So exhausting. I'll be ok.