worlds best grandad
I lost my grandad on the 17th june 2013, nearly two months on i find myself still crying myself to sleep. My gramps lived alone in a little bungalow i use to go round 3 times a week and have lunch together and watch criminal minds and CSI. On this monday afternoon my uncle had phoned me at 2:30 to ask had i taken him out, i hadnt, because he wasnt answering his front door nor his phone, i was due to start work so on my way to work i thought il call by to check everything was ok. I phoned his phone in panic on my way up and my uncle picked up he said to pull over and that grandad is dead, it was at that moment my whole world stopped whilst everyone else went about there daily business. I shot round there and found what was my worst nightmare he was lying on the floor of his bedroom, with his crutch still in his hand collasped, i touched him he was cold and grey. I phoned an ambulance in panic although i know he'd been gone they were there immediately and called the police as it was unexpected. All of his immediate family come over to his face we put him into his bed, and all said our goodbyes, i still remember his body being carried out for a post morten it all seemed to surreal like it was in a movie that i was watching. Days later it revealed he had died of a fatal heart attack, he suffered with coronary heart disease. It was told he died around 9-10am, as he had made his breakfast and let it cool down and gone into get dressed. Following this i went to see him at the chapel of rest, it was along with him on the day he died a image i cant ever get out of my head, lying in a coffin in his suit and grumpy old git mints in his hand it looked like a wax work, something i gained piece but heartache from. Following his funeral on his birthday he would of been 74, i thought it can only get easier. I was wrong every day if im alone i cry i listen to his music and sniff his jumper, i cant go past his house ever ever again, i find myself thinking about him all the time, i just dont know what to do. I havent been out on a night out since it all happened because i dont wanna drink, because i dont want to do something stupid. Im so sad to see in my eyes a teacher,a great man, a generous man, and a grandad who was more like a dad, in my eyes worlds best man. I hope someone else feels like this. Il miss him and love him more than il he'll ever know <3.