worlds best grandad

by Erin

I lost my grandad on the 17th june 2013, nearly two months on i find myself still crying myself to sleep. My gramps lived alone in a little bungalow i use to go round 3 times a week and have lunch together and watch criminal minds and CSI. On this monday afternoon my uncle had phoned me at 2:30 to ask had i taken him out, i hadnt, because he wasnt answering his front door nor his phone, i was due to start work so on my way to work i thought il call by to check everything was ok. I phoned his phone in panic on my way up and my uncle picked up he said to pull over and that grandad is dead, it was at that moment my whole world stopped whilst everyone else went about there daily business. I shot round there and found what was my worst nightmare he was lying on the floor of his bedroom, with his crutch still in his hand collasped, i touched him he was cold and grey. I phoned an ambulance in panic although i know he'd been gone they were there immediately and called the police as it was unexpected. All of his immediate family come over to his face we put him into his bed, and all said our goodbyes, i still remember his body being carried out for a post morten it all seemed to surreal like it was in a movie that i was watching. Days later it revealed he had died of a fatal heart attack, he suffered with coronary heart disease. It was told he died around 9-10am, as he had made his breakfast and let it cool down and gone into get dressed. Following this i went to see him at the chapel of rest, it was along with him on the day he died a image i cant ever get out of my head, lying in a coffin in his suit and grumpy old git mints in his hand it looked like a wax work, something i gained piece but heartache from. Following his funeral on his birthday he would of been 74, i thought it can only get easier. I was wrong every day if im alone i cry i listen to his music and sniff his jumper, i cant go past his house ever ever again, i find myself thinking about him all the time, i just dont know what to do. I havent been out on a night out since it all happened because i dont wanna drink, because i dont want to do something stupid. Im so sad to see in my eyes a teacher,a great man, a generous man, and a grandad who was more like a dad, in my eyes worlds best man. I hope someone else feels like this. Il miss him and love him more than il he'll ever know <3.

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Feb 23, 2014
touched me
by: Grace

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm 15 years old and lost my grandpa 2 days ago. He died the day before his birthday. Your
story really touched my heart and I just wanted to let you know that (':

Nov 19, 2013
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry for your loss, my grandad died 2 weeks ago tomorrow. Age 73 like your grandad & also died of a heart attack. He was my best friend & nothing will replace him. I'm unsure how you get over the shock & the loss but I keep trying to think of him in a happier place, where he can watch me & listen to me? God has strange ways of working but I have to believe he has taken my grandad for a reason & that he's happy & ok & I'm certain your grandad is too. It sounds like you were an amazing grandchild & you should be proud of the relationship you & your grandad had, I was incredibly close to mine visiting him 2-3 times a week, you will have been the light of his life & he won't forget that. Remember the good times, celebrate him for the amazing man he is & all the things he has taught you, he wouldn't want you to be feeling like you are x

Aug 18, 2013
Sorry for your lost
by: Del NY

Sorry for your lost. My grandmother died on June 12, 2013, and I also find myself crying every night. I know how you feel. No one loves as hard as a grandparent. I'm so sorry hun, I know he will hold a special place in your heart forever.

Aug 07, 2013
worlds best grandad
by: Doreen U.K.

Erin I am sorry for your loss of your granddad. Death robs us of more than the person we knew and loved. Death takes from us every future memory and time with that person. As you say passing by his bungalow you cannot go past the same places and everything your granddad stood for becomes such sorrow from losing this part of your life with him.
I lost my husband 15 months ago to cancer and I still feel my loss so deeply that I can't bear another day without him. Life is so hard. WE keep losing loved ones and we seem to be in a permanent state of grief for a long time.
If you have supportive family and friends this will help tremendously. I got good support which helped me move forward better. But this has now gone and I feel so alone with my grief and loss. This can only get easier in time. But everyday without our loved one's with us leaves us with an empty place where they used to be. Nothing or no one can ever fill that gap. We just have to put new things in our life to help us cope with life and be able to move forward. But life will never be the same again for any of us. Only we ourselves in time can make our life better. We will keep losing people from our lives so let us enjoy our time with the one's we have left.

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