Worst day of my life, how could it be 5 years!!

by Hannah

It seems unreal to think that 5 years ago today was without a doubt, the worst day of my life, as it was the last day of my fathers life! A man who taught me how to love, be loved, laugh at his awful jokes, and even taught me to cuss! Lol! I distinctly remember denying the whole thing until, 5 years ago one of the hospice nurses told me it would be good to have some time alone with him, and a wave of sheer pain came over me, I wasn't ready to say goodbye, not yet, he went to hospice on Wednesday, and this was only Sunday! They told us 6 months, something no one can predict of course, but I knew I had to do what I had to do, so I said goodbye, gave him a kiss on the. Hand, said " I'll miss you most of all scarecrow", and walked away, little did I know that in just over 1 hour I would have to say goodbye for good, at least here on earth, he left this earth holding my hand, surrounded by family and all that was important to him, a man that loved his family, woodworking, and not to forget his diet Pepsi! Words can't explain the ache in my heart, but he waited till he knew we would all be ok before he left, the fact that he. Won't be able to walk me down the aisle, see my babies & congratulate me on my new job I'll be getting soon, Is balanced out by knowing that he lived a great 69 years & I'm greatful to have been a part of those for 21 years! I'll miss him everyday and there isn't a day I don't think about him! REST IN PEACE DAD, 1-5-39 - 3-9-08!

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