You are not alone in this Pain
I always feel alone but I come on sites like this and it reminds me that there are so many going through the same pain.
Cause of death is all different and the relationships are different but we all hurt inside.
Take a moment to breath,
take a moment to cry,
take a moment to scream,
take a moment to laugh,
take a moment to dream,
Everyday is different for all of us,
we are in this strange fussy world full of confusion we fight just to wake up because reality hurts so bad,
I find it that the only moments I truly have of happiness is when I spend it with my son, he is amazing, 13 months old full of life and I look at him and I pray that his life is happy and that he NEVER has to feel the pain I felt when I lost his daddy when I was still pregnant with him.
I HOPE THAT NO ONE EVER feels our pain but reality is so many do,
words can not fix it actions can not but do something nice for yourself,
Take a long bath listen to soft music drink a glass of wine, and sob just sob..
I find it that when Im having a horrible day and cannot control my emotions I need to just be alone, being alone is golden sometimes because it helps me gather myself and think out loud say things out of anger and when its over I feel like I can go on the rest of my day with out wanting to die.
I hope someday we all find happiness,
that we all find something positive in our lives to help us move forward, life like this is no life, but I don't know how to change it,
right now I feel positive but tomorrow I might hate everything and everyone,
Iguess all I wanted to say by this is YOU ARE NOT ALONE im here, and I read what everyone posts and I cry for you and for me, for my son, I cry because I know you want to die and I know you don't understand life because I have no clue.
Be good to yourself. because its truly helps to pamper yourself sometimes.
Good Luck everyone, Im always here if you need to talk. I have no experience by far and I am a normal person, young and confused but talking is an outlet lets talk.. lets help eachother out so that the pain eases just alittle