YOU WASN'T SUPPOSE TO GO BECAUSE NOW I NEED YOU

by Yakubu A. Hamid
(Tamale Ghana)


HOW MUCH I CAN NOW FEEL HOW IMPORTANT YOU REALLY WERE TO ME. WHILE YOU KNEW I STILL NEEDED YOU, WHY THEN DID YOU HAD TO GO? LEAVING ME IN A WORLD WHERE NO ONE CAN OFFER ME THE KIND OF LOVE I COULD EVER AFFORD TO RECEIVE FROM YOU, KNOWING THAT YOUR LOVE WAS ALL I NEEDED TO KEEP ME STRONG, HAPPY AND LOVING.. IF NOT FOR THE IGNORANCE OF THE EFFECTS OF WAR, YOU PROBABLY WOULD HAVE WISH TO STAY WITH ME WHILE YOU KNEW I WAS STILL YOUNG. IF NOT FOR THE WISH OF THE MOST POWERFUL, YOU PROBABLY WOULD HAVE WANTED TO SHOW ME THE REAL MEANING OF A FATHER'S LOVE TO HIS ONLY 4 YEARS OLD CHILD. LIFE WITHOUT A FATHER'S LOVE IS LIKE A HARP WITHOUT STRINGS, WHERE AS OTHERS ARE OUT THERE ENJOYING THE LOVE OF THEIR FATHERS, SOMEONE ELSEWHERE IS SEATED SOMEWHERE ELSE WISHING HE COULD HAVE ALSO GOTTEN SUCH A CHANCE, YET WHILE YOU STILL HAVE HIM AROUND, SHOWING YOU ALL THE LOVE THAT YOU WOULD EVER NEED, BUYING YOU ALL THE WONDERFUL SURPRISES THAT YOU NEVER REALLY APPRECIATED, WATCHING OVER YOU AND GIVING YOU ALL THE PROTECTION THAT YOU NEVER REALLY APPRECIATED, YET WHEN HE IS GONE THAT YOU ARE YET TO REALIZE WHAT IT ACTUALLY MEANT TO HAVE HIM AROUND AS A DADDY, A SECURITY TO YOUR LIFE, AND A PROVIDER TO YOUR WANTS AND NEEDS. I REMEMBER MANY PEOPLE TALK MANY GOOD THINGS ABOUT MY DADDY, SPEAKING OF HOW NOBLE A MAN HE WAS, YET HAVING ME AS A SON AND NEVER REALLY KNOWING HIM HAS BEEN A HELL OF PAIN AND SOMETIMES I JUST FEEL I HAVE LOST NOT ONLY MY DADDY BUT ALSO GOOD MEMORIES THAT COULD HAVE ATLEAST HELPED TO KEEP ME GOING... I WAS JUST A KID, I NEVER REALLY KNEW ANYTHING ABOUT THIS, BUT ACCORDING TO WHAT MY MOM TOLD ME, I WAS ONE OF THE ONLY TWO KIDS THAT SURVIVED THAT MYSTERY, YET YOU HAD NOT ONLY GONE ALONE BUT ALSO CARRIED ALONG THE ONLY 4 BROTHERS THAT YOU SHOULD HAVE LEFT BEHIND TO TAKE CARE OF ME, THAT IS WHY IT IS NOT A NICE THING TO CREATE A WAR OR ANY SORT OF MISUNDERSTANDING THAT MIGHT AS WELL LEAD TO EITHER AN INTER-TRIBAL WAR OR CONFLICT FOR THAT MATTER. AS THE WISE SAYING GOES " THAT WAR, MAY SOMETIMES BE A NECESSARY EVIL. BUT NO MATTER HOW NECESSARY IT IS, IT IS ALWAYS AN EVIL BUT NEVER A GOOD. WE WILL NOT LEARN HOW TO LIVE TOGETHER IN PEACE BY KILING EACH OTHER'S FAMILY" THERE ARE SOMETIMES WHEN SOMEONE ASK ME ABOUT MY DAD, IT ACTUALLY MAKES ME CRY, BECAUSE SOMETIMES I JUST FEEL LIKE ITS A SHAME NOT HAVING A DAD, BUT SOMETIMES I KNOW GOD HAD A REASON FOR TAKING HIM AWAY, YET THERE LIES A MOTHER WHO HAD TRIES ONLY HER BEST FOR HIS ONLY CHILD, YET COULD NEVER GET THE CHANCE TO ACCOMPLISH WHAT SHE WISH TO SEE HIM... I KNOW AND I UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH YOU WISHED I COULD UNDERSTAND HOW PROUD OF A CHILD YOU WANTED TO MAKE ME, BUT I ALSO DO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ONLY DO NOT HAVE THE WAYS NO MORE, AND I WANT TO PROMISE YOU THAT I SHALL DO MY BEST TO MAKE YOU A PROUD MOTHER TO ME AS WELL. IN THE GHANAIAN SOCIETY, MOST PEOPLE HAVE BAD PERCEPTIONS ABOUT PEOPLE ON THE STREETS, YES, WE DO SHOW UP TOBE BAD, BUT BELIEVE ME WE COULD SOMETIMES BE GREAT EVEN THOUGH WE NEVER REALLY HA D THE CHANCE TO PROVE IT, BUT WE WISH NOT TO STOP, UNTIL WE CAN PROVE TO THEM THAT A GREATER PERCENTAGE OF WE THE STREET BOYS, COULD HAVE BEEN OF MORE USEFUL TO THE NATION ONLY IF WE WERE GIVEN THE RIGHT PROTECTION, CARE AND EDUCATION, BUT HOPEFULLY, IT IS NOT ALWAYS A MUST THAT ONE HAS TO BE CARED FOR, IN ORDER FOR HIM TO BE ABLE TO MAKE IT TO WHO HE WANTS TO BE IN THE FUTURE, BUT ONLY WITH HARD WORK AND PRAYERS SHALL GOD GRANT HIM A SUCCESSFUL WAY AND FUTURE. REMEMBER, WE ARE NOTHING, BUT ONLY A PENCIL IN THE HANDS OF THE CREATOR, HE DOES WHAT HE WISHES NOT WHAT YOU WISHES AND FOR THAT MATTER YOU DO NOT HAVE THE RIGHT AS YOU THINK YOU DO TO JUDGE MY FUTURE, AM SORRY IF THIS IS GOING RUDE, BUT IT JUST SUCKS TO SEE THEM USE WHAT BELONGS TO ALL OF US, ONLY ON THEIR FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND WANT TO SIT DOWN THERE AND TALK ANYTHING STUPID ABOUT US. I WISH TO LET THEM KNOW WE ARE BETTER THAN THEM EVEN THOUGH WE LIVE OUR LIFE ON THE STREETS BUT WE ARE HONEST ENOUGH TO REMEMBER GOD AND WOULD NOT CHEAT OUR COLLEAGUE HUMANS. WHO EVER THATS READING THIS I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR GOING THROUGH AND I WOULD LIKE TO SAY MAY GOD BLESS YOU FOR GOING THROUGH, ITS GREATLY APPRECIATED.. THANK YOU, IF YOU WISH TO ASK ME ANYTHING AT ALL, WRITE ON THE COMMENT AND I WISH TO ANSWER BACK

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